Friday 25 October 2013

Identity Crisis

I'm having an identity crisis. My 60 day challenge embodies mind, body and spirit and I feel as though they are wandering different astral planes at the moment.

Waking in the middle of the night in sweats after having another vivid nightmare, I tear the images back one by one and try to construct an answer or an understanding of what my subconscious is trying to tell me. Remembering the dreams are like holding water in my cupped hands, it lingers, but eventually it finds the crack and slips away. The words and images escape me but the feelings cling to me, persistent, a nagging reminder that something is not right.

Meditation helps, but I honestly haven't reached the part where meditation means silence from my own chatter. Its a constant blah up there and no amount of self reasoning can calm the conversations. 

I am in a place between now and tomorrow. Now I am who I am, someone who I am closely acquainted with, but tomorrow is someone who is learning and growing and becoming a different individual. I am terrified. After standing stagnant in one attitude for so long, exploring the world from this perspective has left me blind sighted. 

The detox process leaves you crippled. Not only emotionally but also physically and spiritually, but I know this is the hardest part, tomorrow gets brighter and leads me to a better place of understanding.

I promise to be more diligent in blogging my progress and will start sharing some of my delicious, vegan recipes.

Monday 14 October 2013

And so it begins...

So today is the first day of '60 Days of Zen'.

I ate a dozen eggs in preparation for the next 60 days without. I made lemon meringue pie and chocolate brownies. Woke up this morning really excited for the next two months, but also a little nervous. I have received so much support from my friends and I am so glad that they will be here if things get tough.

Week 1 challenge is to go to the Fresh Food markets and buy 1 of everything I don't know and then cook with it and eat it.

So excited

Stay Tuned...


Wednesday 9 October 2013

60 Days of Zen

I have been feeling a bit flat lately. Like I have been steam rolled with emotion. So I have decided to embark on a new challenge.

60 Days of Zen.

Goal : Zen

Challenge: 60 days committed to the following
- Vegan Diet
- No Alcohol
- Juicing
- Minimizing my intake of preservatives
- Meditation once a day
- Abstaining from All sexual activity
- Reading something once a day. Including poetry, news, books, quotes.
- Blogging about my experiences and my journey every 3 days
- No Coffee
- No negativity to the best of my ability
- Spending as much time as possible getting down with mother nature
- seeing a naturopath to get my daily dose of vitamins sorted

Its about spiritually cleansing as well as physically cleansing. It's time to change habits and start a new and exciting journey. Learning about myself, my body and healing. I want to commit to my Reiki and just find myself spiritually again. No excuses.

Clock starts Monday 14th  October.